My body is deteriorating

I think I have arthritis, or else my meniscus and lateral ligaments are torn and I have major hip/knee/lower back problems.

I went to the bookstore today, read some Alice Munro short stories from her collection “Runaway.” The title story is really good. I love the control she has over her details. It was hard to get into it, but once I did, I became more invested. For some reason, the ending wasn’t as good as I had hoped.

I didn’t spend too much time at the bookstore. I’ve been feeling really distracted whenever I go there to read. I just can’t relax and read, it feels like a chore.

I picked up Rushdie’s “Midnight’s Children,” which I had started reading earlier this year for class, but again, I couldn’t focus, and the novel is so complex that you have to be paying attention.

I decided to walk the 3 miles home again, even though my hip and my knee were bothering me. By the end of the walk, it became almost impossible to walk. I may be over rotating my knee to compensate for the pain in my hip, which is causing pain in my knee. I don’t know what to do. I wanted to go in the jacuzzi when I got home, but now it’s too late.

I really don’t know what to do. Maybe I should stay in bed all day tomorrow, but I know that’s not going to happen.